||[Aug. 29th, 2004|10:52 pm]
Tomorrow is move-in day at school, so I'm running around trying to pack still. I have to admit, Mom is right... I shouldn't have procrastinated so much, because now I don't know how I'm going to get all my clothes packed (much less get them to fit). Mom and Daddy are both taking the day off work tomorrow to help out with driving there and everything.
I'm going around telling everyone I'm not nervous, but of course I am! It's a big deal to go to New York and try to make it there. Of course, I'm not nervous about school -- I'm nervous about whether I'm talented enough and if I'll get discovered and whatever. Luke says I have to concentrate on making connections and keeping them, so I'm going to try to meet as many people as possible.
I've talked to my roommate a couple of times, and we e-mailed a little bit. Her name is Willow (what a name, right?). She's a dancer, too, and is going to declare her dance major early on, like me. I think she does more classical stuff but wants to experiment a little with the more modern styles. She sent me her photo, and she's gorgeous. There's no way I can compete with that... not that I'll tell her that. I'll be on my guard around her until she proves herself worthy enough to start hanging out with outside of being roommates. Since I got my lips done, I'm obsessed with looking at everyone's, and hers look great (and they're real... hmph).
Okay, well, actually, I'm looking at everyone's lips even more now since Shawna and I kissed at my party. It's weird... I don't even remember anything leading up to it; I just remember the kiss. I mean, obviously, it was just a one-time thing... it's not like I want to hook up with a girl or whatever. But I just feel like everyone knows, and even if I meet someone new or someone who doesn't know what happened, I feel like they can tell. Like, "that Cokie girl kissed another girl." It's -- oh, crap, Daddy just walked by saying "Cokie..." and pointing to all my clothes. Guess he has a point, hee hee!!!
PS -- Next time I write, I will be in NY!!! :) :) :)