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Epilogue [Oct. 10th, 2005|07:56 pm]
Cokie Mason
Throughout the remainder of college and the few years following, Cokie felt conflicted about many things – among them, what career path she should pursue, whether she wanted to get married one day, and how long she would be able to have dance as a part of her life.

She finished her degree in dance at Marymount Manhattan in New York when she was 24, after alternating between being a part-time and a full-time student. Cokie continued to work at the Scores West Side strip club until she was 22, much to her parents' dismay. She left the club after an argument with Scores' owner, who she felt began to care more and more about drawing customers rather than looking out for his dancers' best interests.

Cokie continued to live in New York with two of the friends she met during her college days. After finishing college, she found reasonably consistent temp work in various offices as she tried to figure out what she wanted to do. During this period, she submitted her photos to Maxim and Stuff but was not accepted. A year after these initial submissions, she tried again, this time using photos taken by a roommate's boyfriend who was interested in gaining more photography experience. While this set of pictures helped Cokie to secure a spot as one of the finalists in Maxim's Hometown Hottie contest, she lost the friendship of her roommate Amy, whose boyfriend had let slip that he and Cokie had been seeing each other on the side since their photo shoot.

Distraught after losing one of her best friends, Cokie turned again to the Kabbalah studies she had begun as a college student and also refused to let herself date again for some while. Eventually, she began having a series of both casual and more serious relationships with the intention of not settling down for a while, if at all. She found it harder and harder to maintain friendships with women and developed close friendships with several of the gay men she was getting to know through the local dance events she participated in. This was a big step for Cokie, as she had previously been unsupportive of the homosexual community (despite her experimentation with Shawna Riverson at a party in high school and several other similar instances over the years).

She continued her temp work and was eventually asked to teach modern dance at a dance studio where she had previously completed an assignment. Cokie enjoyed the environment there, and although she enjoyed working with college students and adults more than younger children, was satisfied with her niche she had found. Throughout the next several years, she was invited to take on more of a business role in the functioning of the studio.

At this point, although Cokie still was not sure what the future held, she felt more accomplished than she ever had before. Even in the midst of grappling with the health issues of some of her gay friends and her continued insecurities in her dating relationships, she felt she might have finally found a path that worked for her.

Audition [Sep. 29th, 2004|09:23 pm]
Cokie Mason
[mood |gloomygloomy]

I didn't get a backup dancer spot yesterday. Willow did. But of course she's so perfect and polite and sweet that she's not gloating about it, at least not around me. That almost makes it worse.

Yeah, yeah, it's only my first audition, and there will be others. But I wanted a spot, damn it. I'm a good dancer, too.

Personal journal [Sep. 24th, 2004|04:50 pm]
Cokie Mason
[mood |chipperchipper]

Eee!!! OMG, I am so excited!!! Willow and I just decided to go to an audition for a music video on Tuesday. We decided to look at all of the postings in the dance department and all of the local papers that have ads for auditions for dancers. We don't know who's doing the video yet, but it would be sooo cool to get backup dancer spots. I feel like I know so much more about dance even since this semester started, so I can't wait to prove myself.

I'm going to be in a show the department is putting on later in October. I'm one of the lead dancers in one of the big numbers, so I'm rehearsing pretty much all the time. Willow is in some of the other numbers, so we both pretty much live in the building with the dance studio. The professors are awesome so far. I'm kind of neglecting my other classes... I just don't care enough about them. It's not that I'm falling behind, really, though; I just kind of do a half-assed job with stuff for them. Willow the perfect is pretty intense about all of her classes and doesn't get that I'm really only here for the dance program. Otherwise, we get along great.

Okay, I guess I'd better go. I think we're going to brave dinner in the dining hall before heading out in the city tonight with some other friends from our hall.

Personal journal [Aug. 29th, 2004|10:52 pm]
Cokie Mason
[mood |stressedstressed]

Tomorrow is move-in day at school, so I'm running around trying to pack still. I have to admit, Mom is right... I shouldn't have procrastinated so much, because now I don't know how I'm going to get all my clothes packed (much less get them to fit). Mom and Daddy are both taking the day off work tomorrow to help out with driving there and everything.

I'm going around telling everyone I'm not nervous, but of course I am! It's a big deal to go to New York and try to make it there. Of course, I'm not nervous about school -- I'm nervous about whether I'm talented enough and if I'll get discovered and whatever. Luke says I have to concentrate on making connections and keeping them, so I'm going to try to meet as many people as possible.

I've talked to my roommate a couple of times, and we e-mailed a little bit. Her name is Willow (what a name, right?). She's a dancer, too, and is going to declare her dance major early on, like me. I think she does more classical stuff but wants to experiment a little with the more modern styles. She sent me her photo, and she's gorgeous. There's no way I can compete with that... not that I'll tell her that. I'll be on my guard around her until she proves herself worthy enough to start hanging out with outside of being roommates. Since I got my lips done, I'm obsessed with looking at everyone's, and hers look great (and they're real... hmph).

Okay, well, actually, I'm looking at everyone's lips even more now since Shawna and I kissed at my party. It's weird... I don't even remember anything leading up to it; I just remember the kiss. I mean, obviously, it was just a one-time thing... it's not like I want to hook up with a girl or whatever. But I just feel like everyone knows, and even if I meet someone new or someone who doesn't know what happened, I feel like they can tell. Like, "that Cokie girl kissed another girl." It's -- oh, crap, Daddy just walked by saying "Cokie..." and pointing to all my clothes. Guess he has a point, hee hee!!!


PS -- Next time I write, I will be in NY!!! :) :) :)

Personal journal [Aug. 12th, 2004|12:14 pm]
Cokie Mason
[mood |amusedamused]

OMG! So, I wanna know why Logan Bruno seems like he's in Sea City with the Pikes. I normally don't pay too much attention to every litte thing people are posting on the boards, but I know like, Jeff Schafer and some other people who hang around the Pikes are there. Why is Logan there? (He doesn't actually say he's with the Pikes, but that's the vibe I get.) I mean, yeah, he's friends with Mallory, but she'd invite Jessi Ramsey or someone on the trip before him.

The possibilities abound... ;) I'll have to see if Grace noticed this... she's always up for gossip. Hee hee, I'm evil.

Personal journal [Aug. 5th, 2004|09:08 pm]
Cokie Mason
I have paper copies of the calendar, too, but I thought I'd put this in my journal since I don't remember dates very well, hee hee:

MMC calendar:

Personal journal [Aug. 4th, 2004|08:46 pm]
Cokie Mason
[mood |contentcontent]

It's my birthday today!!! Woohoo! It's awesome to finally be 18. :)


Personal journal [Jul. 23rd, 2004|11:32 am]
Cokie Mason
[mood |goodgood]
[music |"Hollywood" -- Madonna]

I cannot WAIT for my party tonight. It's going to be awesome!!! I have so much to do to get ready... good thing I happened to have the day off of work!!! I have to get food and snacks and stuff ready, figure out which bathing suit to wear, and try to clean up around the house a little.

People must really know this is gonna be awesome or something, because people I wouldn't have expected to want to come said they're interested, like Pete Black. Whatever... I told him it doesn't bother me if he comes. If it helps him loosen up and be less of a tightass, then okay. I mean, the more the merrier. And Shawna's coming... I know she always loves a good party, but I wasn't sure if she'd want to come. We've said some pretty crappy things to each other. She's a fun girl, though, so it's cool that she's coming.

And I'm not quite sure what to make of Dori's comment to me in my post on the board about the party. Abby said something smartass about how she couldn't wait for the party, so I commented back that even if she wanted to come, I wouldn't let her. Dori said something about how I apparently hadn't recovered completely after my incident. Hmph. Like I care what she thinks anymore anyway. Plus, I am nicer than I might have been before... I don't know if it's graduation and moving on or the hospital stuff, but I did say Pete could come, didn't I?!

I just don't understand her.

Personal journal [Jul. 7th, 2004|10:47 am]
Cokie Mason
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Personal journal -- Hee hee!!! [Jun. 30th, 2004|12:03 am]
Cokie Mason
[mood |amusedtemporarily amused]
[music |"If" -- Janet Jackson]

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LOL, that's pretty much what happens with me and guys. They fall hard for me, then they turn out to have some kind of problem (like Brent and the lying thing). Charlie and Sam Thomas are hot, but I go back and forth between trying to act on that because I can't stand their sister.

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